Joychild

♪♪♪ -I'm trying to figure out how to put this in words.

-Take your time.

-We had that little talk, and I said, "I've been hiding this for a long time."

And you said, "Okay."

[ Bird chirping ] And you accepted it.

I figured one of the best times you ever really understood me and my gender was, um, that very first evening, I think.

-Mm-hmm.

[ Bell chimes ] -It was so hard keeping that secret.

[ Bell chimes ] [ Bird chirping ] [ Bell chimes ] ♪♪♪ I never intended to tell you.

I felt like I shouldn't.

I mean, like, even I was doubtful.

I'm just a little kid.

How would I know?

And then my brain went and took over and said, "You're doing this."

And I went ahead and said it.

And...

I didn't mean to tell you, but now I'm so glad I did.

[ Children chattering indistinctly ] Do I really care what everybody thinks?

-Mm-hmm.

-Yes.

Everybody on this earth, every human being cares at least one tiny thing about what people think about them.

-Yeah.

-But if you still have that heavy weight of caring about it too much, then it will stop you from being who you are.

-Yeah.

♪♪♪ -I thought I wasn't ready.

♪♪♪ [ Children continue chattering ] ♪♪♪ 'Cause it was kind of overwhelming to tell you.

-Mm-hmm.

-And talking about it, I'm starting to feel overwhelmed again.

♪♪♪ -Whoo!

-Whoo!

-Whoo!

Whoo!

-Whoo!

Whoo!

-[ Continues whooping ] ♪♪♪ -'Cause I'm just feeling that come back to me.

I need a big push here.

-You need a push?

Big push?

Push.

-You're free!

♪♪♪ -Like, it's -- it's probably the best memory I have... ♪♪♪ ...telling you...

I'm not a girl... for the first time, but it's probably the worst, too, 'cause that was so hard for me.

[ Crying ] [ Sniffles ] -I'm sorry it was hard.

-[ Crying ] -Oh.

Hey.

-[ Sniffles ] [ Wind chimes tinkling ] ♪♪♪